Why am I so incredibly unhappy?Why is it that everyone else has friends and significant others to turn while I'm in just one unending hell of isolation and loneliness. I feel totally unloved, unable to be a part of any sort of community, like I was born in practically wrong realm of existence. Any social skills I have I only understand in the way you would understand things if you read them from a text book: having an idea about how they work but not the real understanding you have with firsthand experience. I've been called many things: a creeper, a loser, naieve, man-child. It's like for those of you who say you can't fit in, you have no idea what it's like to not be a part of the real world. To feel like everyone else is in on the secret to living in this existence except you. I don't understand the world and I'm tired of being alone. I'm 20, never had a gf, clinically depressed apparently, I have suicidal thoughts but i don't actually want to kill myself (I like imagining the ways I would die and watching people's reactions of horror. I think it has a kind of grotesque beauty to it. A symphony of carnage if you will). God why am I miserable.
Why am I so miserable?
Why is it that everyone else has friends and significant others to turn while I'm in just one unending hell of isolation and loneliness. I feel totally unloved, unable to be a part of any sort of community, like I was born in practically wrong realm of existence. Any social skills I have I only understand in the way you would understand things if you read them from a text book: having an idea about how they work but not the real understanding you have with firsthand experience. I've been called many things: a creeper, a loser, naieve, man-child. It's like for those of you who say you can't fit in, you have no idea what it's like to not be a part of the real world. To feel like everyone else is in on the secret to living in this existence except you. I don't understand the world and I'm tired of being alone. I'm 20, never had a gf, clinically depressed apparently, I have suicidal thoughts but i don't actually want to kill myself (I like imagining the ways I would die and watching people's reactions of horror. I think it has a kind of grotesque beauty to it. A symphony of carnage if you will). God why am I miserable.
Why is everyone else happy?
I was just thinking the other day of the destruction liberalism has caused all over this country, from the devastation of Michigan and the way liberals supported unions have run the big three in the ground, to California with the highest unemployment rates, crime rates and some of the most debauched behavior anywhere to be found in the country, and then you have IL with crime through the roof, political corruption of all kinds, and then you have the American family, there are very few attacks launched against the American family today, that liberals, liberalism and the ACLU do not have their hand in in some way shape or form. I could go on and on with this, The evidence for the obvious failure of liberalism and the war they've launched on America and American values is overwhelming , and yet even with all this carnage all around us , liberals are still in denial about how liberalism has so decimated this county. The reason I'm making this post , is because I asked a question the other day in this forum asking how bad would Obama have to mess this country up, before liberals would wake up. Judging from what I have outlined above, I have little that gives me hope that they ever will. God bless.
Will liberals ever come to grips with the failure of liberalism in light of all the carnage it's caused?
Clouds are corroding, rainbows imploding darkness devours the light God and his glories have fell to the fiends demons deliver the night Wolves and wild beasts find the faithful and feast tearing at hope heavy hearts chasing the cherubs and chewing on bones leaving the less tasty parts Nightmares rape dreams while the subconscious screams stars sink to bottomless black foulness and fear spiked with serpentine smoke carnage creeps out of the cracks lightning bolts lash as we weep for the ash briar and beautiful blaze silence is suffered from strangling screams mourning the death of our days...
Would you read " Death of Days "?
Cthulhu and the Old Ones FSM Xenu Christian God Greek Pantheon Hall of Valhalla Any other gods. Best detailed scenario gets 10 points automatically, and a chance for an Orange "Top Contributor" title. (Based on Best Answer Rating ^-^) Chuck Norris has agreed to stay out of this fight, and decided he wants to watch the carnage from the sidelines while eating a bag of peanuts and splitting virgin women in half. SO NO CHUCK NORRIS. Same thing with Solid Snake, Optimus Prime, Master Chief, anyone else.
Who would win in this fight between the Gods?
Raccoons that go through your trash and knock it all over cause a nasty mess. And it's mean that some of them kill cats and dogs that are stray. Raccoons do all that yet God lets them go straight to Heaven? Yet humans would be considered sinful if they caused that exact same type of carnage? How is that fair?
Do all raccoons go to Heaven, including the ones who go through garbage cans and kill stray dogs and cats?
Manga list: +Anima 07Ghost 1/2 Prince 666 Satan 7 Seeds 7th Period is a Secret Aflame Inferno Air Gear Aishiteruze Baby Akane-chan Overdrive Akuma Bengoshi Kukabara Akumetsu Alive! Angel Densetsu As The Death God Dictates Asklepios Ayu Mayu Bakuman Beast Master Beck Berserk Bitter Virgin Blazer Drive Bleach Boku no Hatsukoi wo Kimi ni Sasagu Boys Next Door C.A.T. Chocolate Cosmos Claymore D Gray Man Deadman Wonderland Death Note DN Angel Dogs (+Dogs- Hardcore Twins, Dogs- Bullets & Carnage) ef- A Fairy Tale of the Two Elfen Lied Eyeshield 21 Fairy Tail Faster Than A Kiss Full Metal Alchemist Gantz Gash Bell Great Teacher Onizuka Half & Half Hatsukoi Limited Hunter x Hunter I'm At The End of Your Sight Ichigo 100% Iketeru Futari It's Not Like That, Darling Kaikan Phrase Katekyo Hitman Reborn! Kiss/Hug Kuroshitsuji Lost+Brain Love Strip Loveless Majin Devil Manhole Moe Kare Naruto No Bra One Piece Ouran Highschool Host Club Perfect Girl Evolution Prince of Tennis Psycho Buster Psyren Rave Record of Fallen Vampire Romeo x Juliet Rosario+Vampire RustBlaster Saiyuki Shin Angyo Onshi Silvery Crow Solanin Soul Eater Special A Team Medical Dragon Tenjou Tenge The World Is Mine Trinity Blood Ubel Blatt Until Death Do Us Part Vampire Knight The World Is Mine Vagabond World Embryo You're My Girlfriend Zettai Kareshi Zombie Powder I'm running out of ideas for mangas to read.. Anyone have some suggestions? Like, any mangas you absolutely loved? Any genre is okay, romance, shonen, don't really care =]Hmm.. I started Shugo Chara, but only got to about chapter 10 before getting tired/annoyed with it.. x_xOH! And if this helps; I Love art styled relatively like Vagabond, Gantz, and etc.. Violence& Reality is a good combination, but any genre is fine.. Though I'm not too hot on overly typical kind've mangas, that repeat the exact same message in just about every chapter (as in Naruto kind've stuff).Opps, Bokurano isn't on my list, but I've read it (my bad =/).
Any good manga suggestions, that I haven't already read?
Mary Poppins The Blue Man Group Wizard of Oz Hair August: Osage County – Winner 2008 Tony Best Play Blithe Spirit Guys and Dolls The 39 Steps God of Carnage Hedda Gabler Impressionism Irena's Vow Speed the Plow 9 to 5: The Musical
What musical should I see?
I used to watch all of those Jesus/Christianity movies, read the bible, and countless of other things and just said to myself, oh TRUE and bad evil only exists in those books/movies, etc, and real life can't be as bad, etc, but then when you look at this real world, what goes on within it, and all of the forces, some very truly evil....the supposed NWO thing, the corruption of nearly all the world's governments, the drugs, carnage, deaths, wars, and so many evils... I asked myself...my god....when I saw those Jesus movies I asked myself how people could k9ll such a supposedly good man, but when witnessing the evil in today's world..I can TOTALLY see it. I then become all "wow....the people of today would do it...for sure, so I can totally see how people back then would do it too, considering that humanity was always filled with evil people capable of that." So then I ask myself, if evil is very real, present, and numerous,...why are those people so ...geared towards that, and really have absolutely NO regard or care for good, and ...what makes them evil? I mean.....there are even people who boastfully and blatantly say even today, that Jesus deserved that, that he was a deluded and crazy person, bla bla bla, (Much like his enemies in the movie)...that would put them in the same league as the people who basically "k9lled God." though they can't see how evil that is, even in a symbolic way. Even if "God and jesus" never existed ,they still fail to see how he died for something "noble and good." They just dont see that. They see all the bad stuff, but NOT the good. they're blind to the good. And yet, they also think they're so right about that; there's no arguing with them, much like the people of that day. So there you have it, we have evil. Then and now. And it doesn't want to be argued with, you can't change its mind, its hard to win, and well, they just see things one way, and we see things a different way and thats that. they argue thats a good thing, that everything's relative, which pretty much is saying " Allow us to think and do whatever the heck we want, and if you piss us off, we'll show you exactly what we're capable of!"......it's like people want to be both evil AND good, they want to just be "free" but go off and using most of that freedom for self gain ANYWAYS...i mean just look at the state of this country lol... which ultimately leads RIGGGHT back to being evil again. So there you have it, reality is stranger than fiction, evil people are stubborn and refuse to see things from a different perpsective, and well, we have people today who k9ll people who are religious, gay, different, and all sorts of things. Our world is just as evil today if NOT alot more than the time period those movies were made so.... why aren't we all outraged?
Did you ever realize how real life is scarier than fiction? Ever watch all those religion based movies?
I think its about time there is an award show that matters for us rockers. Please vote for your favorite artists in the Golden ound Awards. Best Industrial Album Nine Inch Nails - The Slip Dope - American Apathy Reloaded Ministry - Cover Up Mindless Self Indulgance - If Best Male Vocalist Maynard Keenan - Puscifer Mikael Akerfeldt - Opeth Trent Reznor - Nine Inch Nails Best Female Vocalist Maria Brink - In This Moment Angela Gossgow - Arch Enemy Sharon den Adel - Within Temptation Best Concert/Tour Gigantour Progressive Nation Tour Ozzfest Mayhem Festival Most Washed Up Motley Crue White Snake Def Leopard AC/DC Metallica Best Progressive Style Band Dream Theater Opeth Kamelot Testament Best Live Album Bloodbath - The Wacken Carnage Avenged Sevenfold - Live From The LBC Spock’s Beard - Live Best Live DVD Iron Maiden - Live After Death Opeth - The Roundhouse Taoes Dream Theater - Chaos In Motion Best Greatest Hits Album Strapping Young Lad - 1994-2006 The Chaos Years Dream Theater - Greatest Hit (And 21 Other Cool Songs) Megadeth - Anthology-Set The World Afire Best Alternative Album 4:13 Dream - The Cure Andre Sider Af Sonic Youth - Sonic Youth In Rainbows - Radiohead V Is For Vagina - Puscifer Worst Album Of The Year Chinese Democracy - Guns N Roses Death Magnetic - Metallica All Hope Is Gone - Slipknot Live From The LBC - Avenged Sevenfold Best Nu-Metal Band Lamb Of God Unearth Bleeding Through Norma Jean Best Soundtrack Choke Underworld: Rise Of The Lycans Saw V Twilight Best Song Of The Year Burden - Opeth Twilight Of The Thunder God - Amon Amarth Bleed - Meshuggah 34 Ghost I-IV - Nine Inch Nails Best Album Of The Year Opeth- Watershed Amon Amarth - Twilight Of The Thunder God Nine Inch Nails - The Slip Testament - The Formation Of Damnation Band Of The Year Opeth Nine Inch Nails Testament Meshuggah Radiohead Amon Amarth Every vote counts!
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